Xing Yi : " For this past 2 weeks, you everytime do tutorial every time heart not here, less enthusiastic."

I wonder why. No wait. I cannot keep thinking. My brain, body and soul has been overworking on thoughts and I am near a breakdown. As demostrated near LCOM Tutorial today.

It runs through my head once, and forever puts me in a state of confusion.

I question myself is it relevant. Rhetoric question. Afterall, it was silly to think that way.

I know I am rambling in circles. Only those at HG knew what I was saying.

It's late. I need sleep. I need to clear my mind.

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All those promises. To think I was waiting for it to materialise. I was actualy that gullible. Maybe I should have just left you alone. Selfish for oneself. And they say men are bastards. God, I wish those shits took back their words and watch me struggle against the inner demons. I feel exhausted everyday from fighting to maintain a sane mind and I am fast losing my energy.

Self made disaster. Thinking back maybe I was just a fool or just a plain stupid asshole who was just believing that fairies did exist. In time to come, will I be a realist or still the same old immature fuck that I am.

"While I'm gone, everything will be alright."

The sadest songs have the most meaningful lyrics. This I promise you. I cannot think anymore. If only you knew how difficult is it to just try and fall asleep.

Well done, Mark.

Carrying your name, close to me.
11:09 PM