It's wierd when thoughts rebound back to you. Stuff that you want to forget and maybe forgotten, just return back to you. Worse it's at night. It's mad that I feel the force of all those "emo-ness" at this kinda time.

It's a big headache, to tell the truth. I can't describe my feelings now. Happy? Sad? Regretful? Wishful? I can't put it into words. It's a mixture of everything maybe. I just wished this feeling can just F*** off. In a sense Calvin was right, I was a bit emo just now. Whatever for? I also don't know. That's pretty F***ed up.

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Approximately 2 weeks from now, I am ironically going to lose a very close friend to medicine. No it's not death, just that that person is going to Aussie to a college and study. I know a selfish part of me is going to want you to stay behind and go through life's next challenge with us together, but I know that going abroad is a big thing and you should just buzz off and study hard! The problem is I dunno how am I going to like adapt to the fact that "Oh, you are in Australia". It's going to feel like something in life was lost.

I will miss your lala-ness and all the stuff like meeting you, sabo-ing you to call me on a payphone, talking and seeing you in person. It'll be 1 les thing to look forward to for 7 years, with the exception of the possibility that you come back for holidays. Just remember us when you become doctor and give us a discount for our sake. The fees these days kills us all when we wanna get MC. Also I demand free medicine.

Today's goal count : 5(?) - With 1 special single where I cut left and then right before firing a terrific shot passt the keeper.

Carrying your name, close to me.
11:16 PM